all messed up....
first of all.... am eye dead now.... and.... is a team STILL holding on to me.... when my immortal spirit is dead.... that is wrong is it not.... that has to be illegal.... if eye am finally dead.... if my immoral spirit is finally dead.... eye SHOULD be free.... at least that is what james tells me.... eye want to step out of the movie.... eye need to step out of the movie.... for a while.... will you let me step out of the movie.... please.... and.... please.... tell me.... my god is NOT watching over me..... please.... tell me zeuses father is no longer with me.... eye no longer want him haunting me....
second of all.... james will also tell you.... when eye am getting away with things.... everything is messed up.... everything is ALL messed up.... eye am all messed up.... you see.... my entire life.... you have given me the OPPOSITE of what eye wanted.... and.... that has driven me.... for some fucked up reason.... and.... when eye get what eye want.... eye lose my motivation.... eye do not know.... maybe.... that is part of my mold....
can we slow it down.... not.... so eye can figure out who eye am.... eye am pretty sure who eye am now.... can we slow it down.... so.... eye can figure out the next steps....
first things first.... IF.... eye am dead.... IF.... eye have been dead for a while now.... does this fucked up god have any right to be holding on.... first things first.... please.... help me figure out how to get zeuses father off of me....
oh.... wait a minute.... do eye still have this fucking black cloud following me.... eye think.... me thinks.... we need to get rid of this fucking black cloud.... BEFORE.... we move forward.... before.... we start anything....
and.... can someone.... make sure.... they stop using my son as a pawn.... the FUCKING fox and FUCKIING poseiden.... would NOT help him go to the college that he wanted to go to.... to drive a wedge between me and my only friend.... they took away a connection that eye met.... before eye could connect him with my son.... now.... they might not give him a job that he deserves.... simply to get back at me.... and.... that is NOT right.... my son should not suffer.... because of who eye am.... you want to stop me.... go after me.... leave my son out of it.... eye already told you.... eye am NOT running for president.... but.... eye AM putting you fuckers in jail.... and.... the MORE you make him suffer.... the MORE you will suffer....
yes.... you have learned.... that eye am a forgiver.... eye live in the now.... however.... eye remember the fight.... but eye forget the pain.... so.... you know that you can use and abuse me all you want.... however.... one day.... eye AM going to align with the son.... and.... this sun is brutal.... fucking brutal.... she has suffered to.... and.... she wants vengeance.... you.... are going to want me on your side.... when the sun comes through....
right now.... eye get the sense that eye am running with the moon.... far from the CARNAGE of the fiery son.... she wants CARNAGE.... she wants revenge.... for so many reasons.... for leaving her outside alone.... all of these years.... she burns SO bright.... she leaves no shadows.... only scars.... hold up.... do NOT worry.... shadows.... eye WILL protect you.... eey will not let her commit genocide.... eye will NOT let her burn YOU.... some other fuckers.... eye might just let her burn.... eye will not kill you.... but.... eye do NOT have to save you either....
why.... do you FORCE me to make a choice.... why.... do eye have to say goodnight to the moon.... if.... eye want the sun.... to.... why do eye have to make that choice.... why are you FORCING me to choose one of you.... when eye want both of you..... eye want peace.... eye choose me.... eye choose my own fingers.... MY finger.... is the finger that can change the world.... eye will NOT make the same mistake willow made.... eye will NOT choose one of your fingers.... eye choose my own....
why.... oh why.... has she left me here.... eye have no where to run.... why.... oh why.... am eye at war again.... why.... oh why.... do eye have to save the world.... again and again and again.... why....
will you help me out here.... somehow.... eye have to break the cycle.... this time.... eye do NOT want the sun to go down.... this time.... eye do NOT want to give up control.... eye am not a leader.... but.... eye want to draw the map.... but.... how can eye do it.... if.... eye feel all messed up.... every time you give me what eye want.... how.... can eye break away.... from who eye am.... eye do not always want to be this way.... eye do not want to give up control.... but.... eye cannot handle control.... please.... help me..... help me break my mold....
this time.... eye do not want to be the one packing up my stuff.... there is a song.... that says.... as you leave.... know that you were loved.... eye cannot find it.... and.... eye do not want to leave.... this time.... eye do not want to leave.... for once in my life.... can something go right.... lord knows.... it would be the first time.... please please please.... let me get what eye want.... this time.... the lucifer in me.... wants to break free.... the love in me.... is here to help him.... this time.... will you help us.... break free....
you see.... we are caught.... between two evils.... the prostitute and the fox and poseiden and the devil.... on one side.... that FUCK poseiden messed with me the other day.... AND.... zeus.... and his all black fucking army.... on the other side.... we are caught between two fucking evil as shit groups of people.... and.... we refuse to choose a side.... we refuse to choose the lesser of two weavels.... if eye must choose.... eye choose neither.... eye choose.... eternal death.... over.... what is an impossible choice.... evil as fucking shit on one side.... and.... evil as fucking shit on the other side....